# LIVING WITH IT! learning to acception! ;
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
torn into pieces, 12:03 PM

me and dini are bored. so we just took photos of ourselves. haha!

♥its healing.

Friday, October 26, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:14 AM

my darling bestie! NADIA!

us at Farhan's house!
nadia, diana and me!
outing with my secondary school frens...

♥its healing.

Thursday, October 25, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:36 AM

i had an effing day!
i thought by being sweet at 12am will allow me to have a sweet day too.
but shits lah.
lazy to talk about it.
just prefer to keep quiet lah.
so that i will feel peaceful myself.

but luckily the night make my day.
went to Hazmi's house and managed to eat delicious food and chat with some of them.
i had to be happy rite.
no use feeling sad.
haha! thanks again!

NYP FLOORBALL TEAM ARE THE CHAMPIONS!
WELL DONE GURLS!
but we have to train more and harder though.

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:33 AM

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♥its healing.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:25 PM

I Want a Guy

is it too much for me to expect all this?haha!

im just having fun. it will be cool to have all this in a guy!

like as if! no guys in this world can give you all this!
dream on gurls!

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:31 AM

Life is short and you owe it to yourself to be happy in whatever you're doing!

it means you can only depend on urself to feel happy. dun depend on other ppl to make you feel happy. you can be the only one who can make urself happy. sumtyms life's jus dun go our way. we just have to be strong. and yah, i noe its freaking difficult. sumtyms you just feel like killing urself. but wadever it is, you must trust in ur God, that if anything happens, there must be a reason behind it. You just to keep trusting urself and God.
like i used to post on my blog.

"life is cruel n its gonna hit u hard,not letting u get up. tats y u hav to stand up n fight coz its aint over until its over. coz u are more than juz to give up."

"I AM NOT BORN TO SUFFER BUT I AM BORN TO INTO THIS WORLD TO FACE CHALLENGES AND BECOME STRONGER!".

tis to my friends who are having their problems.
please read this and i hope this helps you all alot.
i know i cannot do much but wana let you noe that if you need sum1 to talk to, i will try to be there for you.

life has its ups and downs.
but whatever it is, you have to be happy because if not, you will be the one who will lose out.
just rmbr this, no one cares whether you are sad or not.
what you can do to help yourself is just by being happy with ur life.
and i also know tat the next sentence you gonna say is that but life is so UNFAIR.
haha! thats why sumtyms i just give up with my life and accept things that just go my way and that i cant do much anyway.
hee. what to do right..
just a thought to share with people having problems!
and jus rmbr that there are other people who are worst than us!
adios!

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 12:48 AM

we won SP today.
the score was 11 nil.
the guys was 4-0.
i did not score but i did had chance to score.
the ball hit the post and went out.
haha! next tym den!

♥its healing.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:15 AM




us in pink!
went for jalan raye with the NYP peeps!
had fun with them!



♥its healing.

Monday, October 22, 2007
torn into pieces, 10:39 PM

and yah! i scored just now against ITE!
nice goal though..hee!

my next target is..........i duno leh!
score for POL-ITE Hockey???
i think we are the POL-ITE floorball champions!

♥its healing.

Saturday, October 20, 2007
torn into pieces, 3:35 AM

my next aim is to at least score a GOAL......

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 3:02 AM

I ACHIEVED MY TARGET WHICH IS TO BEAT RP FOR FLOORBALL!!!!!!!!!!


im soooo happy.


i dun care about wad ppl talk about us! bcos its just us who played like a TEAM and held our spirits high even though we were down.



had a tiring day.
had a game with RP, it was a deciding game for us and also that we have to play without the players.
However, that does not affect us sumhow.
I played first line in the first period, but was quite lost den coach put me back in the 2nd.
it was a very very tough game. they score, we score, they score, we score.


until huihui said, "i tired of scoring lah. you all turn to score lah.". like walaowe. she wans the rest of us to score oso lah. hee. thanks gurl for the hard work and the goals you have put in for us!


for the last period, coach decided to play on one line. like real. but we managed to sub lah.
and i played all like the last 5 mins.
i fell like nangka busok! TWICE summore.
and i was like half dying already.
i was soooo freaking tired but in my mind, i die2 wana win that school.
i dun care! hmph!!
btw, thanks for those who cheer for us and for me! thanks alot!!!!


im so proud of myself and the NYP FLOORBALL TEAM!
we did not let ourselves down and keep up our spirit to WIN all the way!
we were soo happy when the final whistle was blown!
our opponents cried..like ermmm..many ppl told ivan that RP will win us!
so we will getting sumthing from him! haha! maybe sumthing from coach too! and also hafidza!
how about smelly arh?? haha!


den wen on to another court to cheer for the guys team.
wah! i tell you. the game was so boring with that kind of umpires.
i think for every 5 mins he will send sumone out.
i sat with pradeep, adibah, handri and krishna.
the comments i made, the comments they made, i think we reali offended the home ground fans.
haha! i dun give a shit! who cares!
i just wana cheer and helped the guys get back at them. hee.


we are like so violent with our words la..urgh! hee.
beta not say out the words. haha! rite?
it was just hard luck that the guys did not win.
but we lose with PRIDE rite. haha!
you guys played very hard, its just that they are kinda weak and made the umpires think that you guys pushed them. its ok guys!!!!
the opponents were named "pussies in BLACK". haha!
so mean rite.
should watch the game. it was exciting but many stupid calls from the umpires!!!


next match will be against ITE and SP.
it will not be easy for us also. so dun be complacent k!
we will go all out to win every team that comes our way!
NYP FLOOBALL TEAM ROCKS ALL THE WAY!

btw, thanks wileen, fariza and leng for being by my side and always ensuring me if im ok or not. haha! dun wory. my motto is "dun worry, be happy". haha! if im not okie also, i will try to be happy.

♥its healing.

Thursday, October 18, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:30 AM

i miss spending time with you..
i miss you..

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:14 AM

i miss my gal frens especially NADIA, AZILA, AISYAH, JANNAH AND IZYANI...

aku nak pi umah korg and ber-raye.
jgn lupe duit raye aku jugak k?
haha! joking lah.

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 12:26 AM

i duno wad to blog.
but i think as a fren, u shud just let them do wad they want in their life.
let them make the decisions.
its their life. they wana be hapi.
we can just hope that they make the right decisions.
and u just support them.


for floorball, we won tp 6-1 and np 6-2.
dun feel quite hapi about it but i just play my game lah.
wad to do.
wana aim to score at least a goal!

♥its healing.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
torn into pieces, 5:36 PM

my raya pix!!!

♥its healing.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007
torn into pieces, 11:43 PM

he hugggg me so tightttt just now..
im soooooo happy..haha! just to appease myself lah after so long..

♥its healing.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007
torn into pieces, 12:45 PM

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect, it means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections.

♥its healing.

Monday, October 08, 2007
torn into pieces, 9:23 PM

from nadia to me. something for me to make me feel at ease.
thx nad!! i luv u sis!

Have We not laid your chest open for u and put aside your burden for you..that burden which weighed heavily on your back and raised high esteem in which you held. with every difficulty there is relief and therefore when you are free turn to Allah for attention...for with hardship comes ease;indeed with hardship comes ease.(94: 1-8)

I asked for strength and Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for courage and Allah gave me obstacles to overcome.

I asked for love and Allah gave me troubled people to help.

i asked for favors and Allah gave me opportunities

Maybe i received nothing i wanted BUt I received anything i needed...cuz eventually wat u need when u get it, it might not be what u want...

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 8:53 PM

to aisyah bte salim!! cepat lah alik. aku rindu kau. need ur hugs!!! need ur shoulder!!! hee.

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 8:40 PM

it raise questions but i have to keep quiet and accept it and SMILE and be HAPPY.
trust lor.

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 12:45 AM

things to do this week is to clean my room and house.
before raye. tink i have to do most of the house chores cos my aunt cannot walked cos she injured her knee.
no food cos she cant cook. I CAN'T COOK TOO except maggi lah.
but never mind since maz is owaz at home, can ask her clean the house too.
have to prepare sofia to school. dini coming on tuesday so must take care of her.
have to go for hockey and floorball trg cos the tournaments is starting soon.
my room in a mess. have to clean also. tink tmr lah. haha!

btw, can i write something sweet in my blog?

the talk goes like this.
echal: will you come and see me if i am sick?
lin: no! i will not come and see you!
echal: ooh..why?
lin: i will not come and see you, but i will come to TAKE CARE of you.
echal: awww...so sweet of you.
lin: HAZLIN wad...

hehe. sweet things are meant to shared and remember rite. it will make you smile and be hapi.
i am practically bored rite now. so just feel like wana type sumthing in my blog for the fun of it.

another chat. here it goes.

lin: mcm malas lak nak bgn and cook maggi for sahur nanti.
echal: huh?? bgn masak maggi pon malas? padahal its the simplest you can cook sey. tu pon malas? mcm mane nak kahwin nanti?
lin: huh? kahwin? takyah kahwin lah. kan senang. lagipon who wants me. whahahhahah! senang per. keke.

another one. im like crapping lah. so bored. up to u guys whether u all wana read or not k.

my dad was cleaning all his stuffs from big boxes lah. den he found his collection of watches. then he found this one.
ayah: nah! ni jam rolex tau. amik lah. den kalo nak tunang, bleh bagi.
lin: huh! sape sey nak tunang! yucks! 10 yrs later lor!!! NO MONEY!! kekekek.

haha! since last time, whenever i am sick, he will also sick. so wenever he sick, i will also sick.
i duno why but we realise that.
now, i am down with coughs and he is down with flu. haiyoh!

to hazmi, thanks so much ehk!

i lurve echal!

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 12:26 AM

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line
Today, bring one of your hidden creative qualities up from deep beneath the surface.


In Detail
The many layers of your personality make you a richer, more evolved person -- but some layers aren't getting the amount of attention they deserve.

Today, it's time to reorganize the many elements that make up 'you.'
Bring some of the aspects of yourself that are deep beneath the surface up to the top of the pile.
Let the world see the parts of yourself that you never usually reveal.
Take your biggest insecurities and let them all hang out.
Be proud of your imperfections.

taken from My Friendster Horoscope.

♥its healing.

Sunday, October 07, 2007
torn into pieces, 2:29 AM

ok. i've got lotsa to say.
well, hmm....i duno where to start. haha!
now im helping my dad cleaning all the shits in my house and at the same time blogging???
so try to imagine k. basically im doing nothing but watching him clear all the stuffs la.
kan nak raye. haiz.

i feel im a super brave stupid gurl.
i duno why im doing this but im doing it.
its verrrryyyy hard for me. but i have to be verrrrryyyyy strong to face it. wth.
what a sacrification i have to make.
its like a dare to me. maybe i can join FEAR FACTOR! haha!
I DUN BLIV IM DOING THIS.

nobody knows what im feeling.
with all those shits that i am facing.
maybe its not serious or cool SHITS. its challenges.its cobaan. its dugaan.

Ya Allah. Beri lah hambamu semangat, kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk menghadapi semua ini. Amin.

i hope to hear someone say "im so proud of u, hazlin."
i used to have sum1 who told me that he is soooo proud of me being a great daughter and gurlfren.
but im sorry to disappoint you.

but now i feel like i dun have the motivation to move on and be strong.
i can only depend on myself, no one but MYSELF.
ITS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD. WITH NONE OF BLA3....
hah! where i get the strength to move on? until now? its been like years since i've been independent and manage to think on my own.
having to find money on ur own and at the same time schling and facing all those shits.
how to carry all that in ur hand??

its so hard to control and handle your feelings and emotions.
but some people are able to easily forget the shits and move on.
HOW DID THEY DO THAT? i wana learn that trick too.

BTW PEOPLE, THIS IS LIFE!! HAHA!
YOU HAVE TO LOVE YOUR LIFE!
EASIER SAID THAN DONE RIGHT!

♥its healing.

Saturday, October 06, 2007
torn into pieces, 2:46 AM

i had fun with you today, echal....=)

♥its healing.

Friday, October 05, 2007
torn into pieces, 2:34 PM

im lost of words.
i hope to be like normal.

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 3:05 AM

I MISS MY DARLING DINI!!!
I LURVE HER SOOOOO MUCH!!!
coughing badly rite now

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 2:04 AM

i duno wad to blog today.
my tears will speak the words.
i wish it will rain so that i will walk under the rain and no one will know tat im crying.

♥its healing.

Thursday, October 04, 2007
torn into pieces, 12:56 PM

my horoscope for the day.
Aquarius
"Stop thinking so hard about how to reach people. Just start saying what you want."

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 4:10 AM

and im just feeling lost and confused. and maybe mixed feelings?
who can i pour out to?
so many freaking bontoting things. hehe.
i just need someone to be there for me and give me advice on what to feel and what to do.
hear me out. listen to me. a shoulder to cry on. advice me. comfort me.
be there for me. care for me.
maybe im just thinking and expecting too much.

i think i just care too much on what people feel and think.

i wana fight for THEIR rights, but I get the blame.
i wana fight for MY OWN rights, but also I get the blame.
be it anyone.

SO HOW? anyone can help me.

omg!! im feeling so emo rite now.
and aftr a long time, i feel like crying my heart out.
BE STRONG HAZLIN! (dun worry, be happy aite!)
i understand others plight and i feel the hurt for them too.
wad a shit. haha!

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 2:23 AM

is it better to be selfish to sacrifice for your own happiness or others???
but being selfish, people will hate and talk about you for that.
if sacrifice for others, they will be happy BUT you may feel sad and hurt.
so which is better?

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 12:29 AM

hey syafizah! wana wish u hapi sweet 17th bufday!
may God bless you.
hope you enjoy ur day k.
now you can slp early rite.
hehe.
see ya soon dear gurl!
lotsa *hugs* & *kisses* specially for you.

NOT FORGETTING, MUST PLAY WELL FOR THE SIHC K.
I WILL CHEER FOR YOU!
GO SYAFIZAH! YOU ROX! hehe.

♥its healing.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007
torn into pieces, 3:17 AM

coughing non-stop now.
my face is peeling badly.
it hurts too.

btw, i cut my hair. veri short. haha.
=)

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 2:44 AM

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torn into pieces, 2:27 AM

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 2:03 AM





here are some pictures taken..



♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:43 AM



i lurve this pictures.
hah!
do we look like brother and sister????
i lurve you!



♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:14 AM

duno wad to blog.
been feeling quite sianx lah.

tired aftr the sixes.
having throat irritation aftr too much cold drinks.

duno la.
watever i do is wrong. tis lah, tat lah.
ask oso cannot. am i wrong to ask to clear my suspicion.
i guess we shud be honest.
haiyah. dun care lah. move on.
dowan to think abt it oredy.

btw i got damn lotsa pictures to upload.
finally got all the pix frm echal. i din noe it was aloooooooot. haha!
i will put in the slideshow lah. easier lah.

♥its healing.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007
torn into pieces, 1:51 AM

hapi 20th birthday my dear sista!
a birthday kiss for u!
*muacks*

♥its healing.

torn into pieces, 1:29 AM

i seriously need to get some shits out of my chest and i did it.
just hated it soo much.
older than me yet no brains to think whats right and wrong. TOOPID!!
so childish and immature.
haiz.
n yet i have to give in for the sake of other's happiness.
its owaz been this way.
i give way to them yet they dun appreciate it and dun give it the hell of a shit of my sacrification.
n its just me feeling the pain and hurt.

n i duno how come the patience in me during this month is so much better and im suprised. alhamdulillah.
so many things i did and the decisions i made, i felt soo calm. alhamdulillah.
i hope to continue like this.
n i oso hope some people better DUN step over my head k. noe ur LIMITS!!
even thought the hatred and anger IN ME is soo much. ARGH!


but i will just forget abt it lah. no use harping or dwelling on it rite.
what for. will not make me happy if i keep thinking abt it.
so beta just forget abt it and move on lah. rite?
"dun worry, be happy". yeah. cool shit.

♥its healing.

♥her

GIRL:her
BORN:9 february


♥loves

BEING LOVED!!!
;MONEY.
;CHOCOLATES.
;ROMANTIC MOMENTS.
;LAUGH.
;GAZING STARS.
;THE FULL MOON.
;BEING ALONE.
;PLAY POOL.
;FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES.
;HOLIDAYS! ;freedom...
;independent...
;sports...
;music...
;hang out...
;movies...
;slack...
;sleep...



I love dini marsha n intan sofia!

♥desires

nothing much
JUST HAPPINESS PEACE & LOVE


♥whispers



♥peeps

♥bb maz
♥nadia
♥azila
♥ilyani
♥izyani
♥ivy
♥limin
♥esyha
♥xinni
♥syafizah
♥leng
♥baini
*vanessa
*fariza

*mai
*lydear
*shamsul
*fadzhilla
*nura
*nur
*suzie

*ajamboi
*mis
*mardhiah
*mahirah
*basirah

*nyp hockey*
*sirin
*umairah
*rams

♥reminiscence

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