short recap of stupid things that happened.

told someone about somethings. then while protecting another friend, misunderstandings took place. and the best thing, they talked bad about me. wah! like thanks alot larh. but forget it lah. dun wish to think about this. to me, just forgive and forget lah. dun wish to drag it also. some friends just come and go. they are just an option.

after months and months, it still carries on. duno when it will end. im so tired.

guess there is no need to consider my feelings. it just sucks though.

just feel that we are not what we are now. i guess we are growing up now. we are so different now. cant tell each other everything now. whatever i say or do is wrong. i dun blame him actually. i always blame myself if things happened. haha! its so painful. tears are rolling now.

am i considered not to be worthwhile? im trying so hard to be strong.

i know sometimes im being unreasonable but circumstances force me to.

i know im not being myself during my last game. thats not me at all. but if people force me, i can be worst than you can think of me.

and often my fren scold me instead of siding me.

i accept it. what to do.

i duno what to do.

am i that bad that you have to do.

even after we talked things out, things are still the same.

what do you want from this relationship. do you know what im feeling. i cant even be myself and i dun even know who am i now?

what am i to you? i duno what you want from me.